| Okay prepare for a long one today...
First off today has got to be one of the worst days of my entire life.
After we got out of school today I took Jessica home and as I sat in her house I got extremely uncomfortable as if I really didn't belong there, or better yet, not wanted there. I know her mother doesn't like me and I'm not sure why but I really hope she gets over it while I'm with Jessica. Before I left I was talking to Jessica in my Jeep and we kissed as our song "You and Me" by Lifehouse played and she got upset and jumped out of my Jeep and ran in her house. (Babe, I didn't mean to upset you) I AM NOT GOING TO LOSE JESSICA! No mater what happens, my love is way to strong for her for it to end just because I'm transfering schools or because of the opinions of her mother.
*Babe, I've never been so happy in my entire life than when I'm with you, without you Im nothing, especially at this point in time. We can make it through this! I PROMISE! Just think if you and I both make it through all of this High School crap and my money problems everything can and will be perfect. Please understand babe that I am not going to break up with you unless that's what you want, okay. (No matter what...unless you do something stupid...you know what I mean) But Im not worried about that though. oh and babe if you want to try to do what we talked about then I'm willing. I've always wanted a huge and extraordinary life and I always have known that Im better than a mediocre life and I refuse to live a mediocre life at that. With you my life is extraordinary and nothing could ever change that. I love you so much, you just have no Idea!
Do you remember this entry you made?...
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Today was awsome, Chris picked me up for school from my sister's house. I got to spend time with him this morning just to sit and talk. I enjoy just bring around him, he nor I have to say or do anything to make it that way. If this isn't LOVE I don't know what is. No one has ever made me feel this amazing. he makes me feel like nothing can hurt me and he treats me like an ANGEL. I can't imagine being with anyone else now or ever again. I LOVE YOU CHRIS. I just felt like you should know. I can't seem to tell you enough I just feel like you will be the last person I will ever LOVE or want to be with.
Well I am going to bed now Hope you enjoy reading about my LOVE for Chris.
Zomb1e_Lover--*Jessica
This entry nakes me feel so good I'll sometimes reread it over and over again just so I realize it's true. I've never felt this way with anything or anyone before in my life and If I truly make you feel that way then we really should not have anything at all to worry about. Read the notebooks, Jessica, everything in them is true! Nothing has changed. No matter what I (we) go through. The thought of losing you just rips me apart in so many ways. And now with my aunt and uncle are forcing me to transfer, I wont be able to see you hardly at all! They just dont understand...I try my hardest to pull myself out of this hole that I've dug as they watch. They listen which really really helps me but I can't deal with it all much longer. If they could only understand that if I stayed at LaFayette just until my Junior year is over I would be glad to transfer my Senior year. I'm just scared to ask this of them. Here's their answer NO! Though I am still going to ask my aunt tonight. Oh, and from now on I've got to be careful what I say on here because they apparently read these entries...Anyway, look I want to spend the rest of my life with you I want the marriage we spoke of and maybe a family someday! Everyone else may think that hey were only seventeen and will never accomplish this but I'm willing to prove them wrong! Let's do it together. Let's show everyone that we can do it contrary to what they say. Through thick and then. We can do it!*
You
Your smile awakens my soul
as the sun awakens the day
a kiss and my life is yours,
seems a fair price to pay.
Your touch arouses my senses
as the moon arouses the night
hold me and you will win me forever,
in your arms you make all things right.
Your heart endures all emotions
as the sky endures the stars
love me and we will have eternity,
for there is no love greater than ours. |
As of right now Im waiting on 4 o' clock to arrive so I can go get some gas money from my friend Jordan Wilbanks. So I took advantage of the free time to make an entry for I'm not even trusted in using the internet there at my own home. Oh well...so an hour or two ago I went to the middle school here in LaFayette to visit my old teacher, Mr. Powell, to thank him for helping me through all of my bad times as I was in middle school. Just standing in the empty six grade class rooms brought back so many memories it's absolutely insane. I wanted to cry. hehehe...just kidding. Then as I arrived at the library I met my old, old art teacher from elementary school. things I think are about to make a big turn.
The only thing I want for Christmas is to be able to stay there a LaFayette until my Junior year is over. That's all!
So anyway Jessica if you EVER get ANY chance to call me then do so. You PROMISED! Today!
You can call me at work tomorrow I start at 6:00pm and get off @ 10:30pm. I may go to Branden Mannings house (that night for we'll shoot another part of his documentary on Corpsewood that night) to crash. Saturday morning I may be at Corpsewood shooting too.
Anyway, Jessica I love you so much and keep in mind everything I told you and know that I will ALWAYS love you.
 
This here is all time favorite movie (which I dont even own!) I highly recommend this movie to ALL! Jessica if You have not seen it, you have to rent it or something you must see this. This movie is the only movie that still makes me cry everytime I watch it. WARNING: Very, very, very, sad ending.
LOTS OF LOVE TO ALL!! and merry Christmas
Oh and Jessica I wont get home until 6:30pm and i cant guarantee that Ill answer b/c i may have to wait outside in my Jeep...keep calling until about 11:00pm. I love yo forever and Always! and no matter what Im callin you (if Im not on the phone with you) at 9:00pm-ish |
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